As we close out 2012, I took a moment to reflect on my 2012. I can say that this year has been very much a rollercoaster of emotions. I have experienced great joy and tremendous pain. Both personal loss and personal gain. Some relationships blossomed while others were strained. Despite it my love for family and the goodness in people remains. My perserverance was battle tested and sometimes wounded to the point of surrender. However everytime I was ready to waive the right flag the right person, place, or thing would appear and assure me that I would make it through. I have had the opportunity to learn a lot about myself. What my emotions are during my high times as well as low times. I have learned who my inner circle consists of and I am okay with that. I understand that just because you are a friend to some does not mean they are a friend back- and that was okay. I understood where they were and chose to either meet them on their level or I left them alone. I have learned to show more empathy without letting that blind me from the true person. Overall I am very thankful for the growth and the tests. Without them I would not have a story or testimony to share with others. Be safe out there tonight and bring in 2013 with love, peace, and joy in you hearts!!
Good Steward October 21, 2012
I have done a lot of thinking about life and how in life we always seek and want more. We search and work ourselves to near exhausting in pursuit of the next best thing we have to get. Whether it’s your dream job, car, or house, it seems our mindset is always on more. Don’t get me wrong there is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting more. However in that pursuit of more, do we take the time to appreciate what we have in our current state. This got me to thinking of what it means to be a good steward. All my life I was taught to take care and cherish what you have no matter how big or small because it was all a gift from God. This included anything from the food we ate to the bus driver that used to take us to school.
Fast forward 20 years and sad to say that teaching is still with me but not exercised as much as it should. There are many things I want for myself in life. Yes I want more and I will admit that wanting more sometimes causes me to neglect to cherish the here and now.
During my hiatus I had time to really evaluate and found that I was not a very good steward of the things I am blessed with. I found myself always focusing and praying for more but never really taking the time like I should to thank God for the here and now with the exception of my family and health. I never took the time to be appreciative of the fact that during this tough time I have a job that I am able to go to everyday. In fact whether it’s my dream job or not I should still smile when I go there because that is a blessing. I have a car that is reliable and gets me anywhere I need to go. But rather than being thankful that I do not have a car payment, I am lured by all the new gizmos and gadgets on the newer models. So I neglect to keep my exterior washed and may go 100 or 200 miles over my normal oil change/maintenance. Again not a good steward.
I had to sit and have a long conversation with God to get to the bottom of this and the answer was very simple and crystal clear. In order to be blessed I have to be a good steward over the gifts I have now and also bless others with my gifts. Each and everything we have comes from a blessing and it is our duty to share and pass the blessings forward. This will give God glory. I had to take the focus off of me and what I thought I needed, and in turn manage what I have to the best of my ability to help others and in turn glorify God.
The Return October 17, 2012
It has been a LONG time since I last posted. Such is life. These past few months have been very busy so I took a little hiatus from my writing. During my time away life happened fast and furiously. They were the best and worst of times, a myriad of emotions and maturity. I had the opportunity to welcome new members into the family, care for recovering loved ones, and the emotional pain of saying goodbye to dearly departed loved ones. Through it all, I was able to process each and every moment and take a lesson from it to apply to my everyday living. I took that time to reflect, inspect, and learn so much about me and the relationships I have cultivated. I am refreshed, renewed, and exhilarated.
Here we go!
Friendship May 20, 2012
I came across this poem that perfectly sums up my friendships and thought I would share. Hope you enjoy! 🙂
A friend is like a flower, a rose to be exact, Or maybe like a brand new gate that never comes unlatched.
A friend is like an owl, both beautiful and wise.
Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost, whose spirit never dies.
A friend is like a heart that goes strong until the end.
Where would we be in this world if we didn’t have a friend. – By Adrianne S
Choices April 22, 2012
Today is a day of bleh…I am feeling all kinds of things and this poem by the great Nikki Giovvani sums my mood up perfectly.
If i can’t do what i want to do then my job is to not do what i don’t want to do
It’s not the same thing but it’s the best i can do
If i can’t have what i want . . . then my job is to want what i’ve got and be satisfied that at least there is something more to want
Since i can’t go where i need to go . . . then i must . . . go
where the signs point through always understanding parallel movement
When i can’t express what i really feel i practice feeling
what i can express and none of it is equal
I know but that’s why mankind alone among the animals learns to cry
Written by Nikki Giovanni
Where is the Love? April 17, 2012
I came across this on one of my friends Facebook page and wanted to share. I really enjoyed the M&M analogy
Moments of Pleasure April 13, 2012
Moments of Pleasure
walks in the park
making someones day with a kind thought and word
running in the rain
dancing to my own beat
walking barefoot in the sand
a good love story
looks of longing
falling asleep in the arms of the one you love
Smiles that tell me I’m loved
Letting people know they are appreciated by me
Just a few things that give me moments of pleasure