As we close out 2012, I took a moment to reflect on my 2012. I can say that this year has been very much a rollercoaster of emotions. I have experienced great joy and tremendous pain. Both personal loss and personal gain. Some relationships blossomed while others were strained. Despite it my love for family and the goodness in people remains. My perserverance was battle tested and sometimes wounded to the point of surrender. However everytime I was ready to waive the right flag the right person, place, or thing would appear and assure me that I would make it through. I have had the opportunity to learn a lot about myself. What my emotions are during my high times as well as low times. I have learned who my inner circle consists of and I am okay with that. I understand that just because you are a friend to some does not mean they are a friend back- and that was okay. I understood where they were and chose to either meet them on their level or I left them alone. I have learned to show more empathy without letting that blind me from the true person. Overall I am very thankful for the growth and the tests. Without them I would not have a story or testimony to share with others. Be safe out there tonight and bring in 2013 with love, peace, and joy in you hearts!!
The Return October 17, 2012
It has been a LONG time since I last posted. Such is life. These past few months have been very busy so I took a little hiatus from my writing. During my time away life happened fast and furiously. They were the best and worst of times, a myriad of emotions and maturity. I had the opportunity to welcome new members into the family, care for recovering loved ones, and the emotional pain of saying goodbye to dearly departed loved ones. Through it all, I was able to process each and every moment and take a lesson from it to apply to my everyday living. I took that time to reflect, inspect, and learn so much about me and the relationships I have cultivated. I am refreshed, renewed, and exhilarated.
Here we go!
Friendship May 20, 2012
I came across this poem that perfectly sums up my friendships and thought I would share. Hope you enjoy! 🙂
A friend is like a flower, a rose to be exact, Or maybe like a brand new gate that never comes unlatched.
A friend is like an owl, both beautiful and wise.
Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost, whose spirit never dies.
A friend is like a heart that goes strong until the end.
Where would we be in this world if we didn’t have a friend. – By Adrianne S
Forgive and Forget?? May 16, 2012
We often hear the phrase “forgive and forget”. This got me wondering how many of us truly do this? How many truly forget a painful and awful act caused by a loved one? A lot of times we are able to forgive someone of their actions because after all we are only human right. I just wonder how many of us truly forget the painful act. Can we forgive someone without forgetting? Or is that not really forgiving if we keep the memory of the hurt etched in our minds? This got me to thinking of myself. For a long time I thought I had forgiven this one individual for hurting me emotionally and not acknowledging their actions. I confronted this person about how I was feeling, and they gave a haphazard apology. I let them know that I felt the apology was not sincere, but I would accept it. I thought that was it. I should have been immediately cured of my emotional pain right? Boy was I DEAD wrong!! Even though I forgave the individual, every time I heard their name my skin would crawl. My mind would immediately take me back to the pain this person caused me.
Then one day I had an epiphany and asked myself what good does it do me to hang on to a memory that causes me to become upset? After all I am sure the person who offended me had moved on. I claimed I had by forgiving, but why was I still kept in bondage by holding on to the memory? This was tough for me to grasp. I mean let’s face it, I allowed another individual power over me. It is funny now that I think about it because I was walking around holding on to memories and I was far from a memory in their mind. How did I let myself get so caught up in the offense that it allowed me to remain stagnant? After all I HAD forgiven them right? Wrong!! To me a part of forgiving is also allowing yourself to let the memory of the offense fade into the distance. It is working for me so far, however notice I said fade. Which means the actions are still in the back of my mind reminding me of how far I can go with and what to expect from that individual. It is truly a process, but each day is better than the day before.
I am curious to know your thoughts on whether it is realistic to forgive and forget???
Happiness May 7, 2012
Like the birds sing a sweet song.
Like the rivers strum a lovely tune.
Like the stars serenade the moon.
Like flowers look so pretty in June.
Like water makes violets grow.
Like winter brings flaky snow.
This true and no jest. Love is the blueprint for happiness.
by Lamar Cole
Where is the Love? April 17, 2012
I came across this on one of my friends Facebook page and wanted to share. I really enjoyed the M&M analogy
Moments of Pleasure April 13, 2012
Moments of Pleasure
walks in the park
making someones day with a kind thought and word
running in the rain
dancing to my own beat
walking barefoot in the sand
a good love story
looks of longing
falling asleep in the arms of the one you love
Smiles that tell me I’m loved
Letting people know they are appreciated by me
Just a few things that give me moments of pleasure